Post by ritz on Apr 9, 2008 0:09:32 GMT -5
Hey all,
I bet you never thought you'd hear from me, likely you don't want to, but this is Janae.
I just wanted to say some things because, well, I may never get another chance to say them. It's time to end one chapter of my life and start another. I'm off to college soon. I don't know if I will come to Clearfield very much. Most likely, I'll leave and never return.
I just want to let you guys know that although I did not show it well, I did value your friendship for the time that it was just friendship. I genuinely enjoyed being around you guys, inventing new worlds, talking about things I had never talked about before and such. It was nice to be able to so fully rely on a group of people with my secrets without worry of being judged or treated differently. You were all good friends.
I try very hard to hide my feelings. I don't want anyone to know that I am not as strong as I pretend to be. I do not know if anyone knew, but I have had an extremely difficult life, especially since I turned 16. Everything got so complicated, and my life began to fall apart at the seams. I have stuggled holding myself together, so I couldn't be there for others. I separated myself from many things that stressed me out or upset me. I started over the best I could. I still have a hard time. I feel like my life is a soap opera: one so extreme and filled with drama that it seems illogical to happen. But this isn't about me. I would like to say that I am sorry that I have caused you guys pain. I hope you can find it in your hearts to understand. And though we may never see one another nor talk, just know that I do not regret our friendships. It played an important role in my life. It helped me discover myself. I will always remember you guys.
I wish you all the best in all that you do. CTR!
~ritz
I bet you never thought you'd hear from me, likely you don't want to, but this is Janae.
I just wanted to say some things because, well, I may never get another chance to say them. It's time to end one chapter of my life and start another. I'm off to college soon. I don't know if I will come to Clearfield very much. Most likely, I'll leave and never return.
I just want to let you guys know that although I did not show it well, I did value your friendship for the time that it was just friendship. I genuinely enjoyed being around you guys, inventing new worlds, talking about things I had never talked about before and such. It was nice to be able to so fully rely on a group of people with my secrets without worry of being judged or treated differently. You were all good friends.
I try very hard to hide my feelings. I don't want anyone to know that I am not as strong as I pretend to be. I do not know if anyone knew, but I have had an extremely difficult life, especially since I turned 16. Everything got so complicated, and my life began to fall apart at the seams. I have stuggled holding myself together, so I couldn't be there for others. I separated myself from many things that stressed me out or upset me. I started over the best I could. I still have a hard time. I feel like my life is a soap opera: one so extreme and filled with drama that it seems illogical to happen. But this isn't about me. I would like to say that I am sorry that I have caused you guys pain. I hope you can find it in your hearts to understand. And though we may never see one another nor talk, just know that I do not regret our friendships. It played an important role in my life. It helped me discover myself. I will always remember you guys.
I wish you all the best in all that you do. CTR!
~ritz
